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Welcome to the Beneath The Tracksuit Blog.
Here’s where I share weekly thoughts, stories, and updates.
From poetry and spoken word to mental health, resilience and life Beneath The Tracksuit, you’ll find it all here.
This isn’t just my space! From time to time,
I’ll be inviting others to contribute their words too.
Different voices,
Different stories,
One community.
Our Verses
This space is for you.
Whether you live with MS, face your own storms, or just feel deeply, your words belong here.
If you’ve written something that needs to be seen, share it below. I’ll feature selected poems on this page, so we can keep building this community,one verse at a time.
In Spite of my Dead Place
Tornadoes strike in dead places. Thunder clouds are shadows inside broken bodies, lives, emotions, despair, turbulent rain storms, and razing lighting - when no one knows. In the season of autumn, I’m in the era of my life, struggling with challenges . I’m more than most survivors. I kick with bloody feet in asses. I fight like a warrior with my swords and shield, warring in my soul for a new dawn. I choose to confront demons attacking me, and not just complain. As I watch
Jan 31 min read
2026
I started last year with a little quote, A happy little side note, "Positive vibes for 2025" But between my degenerative disability and a lot of mental health struggles, If I'm honest, I'm just glad I made it out of 2025 still alive. It's amazing what a variation a year can be, From happy, positive vibes to breaking mentally. You never truly know what kind of year it'll be . 2026 I'm not planning a life fix, Or a mental overhaul, Or A new me, I don’t have those kind of magic
Jan 31 min read


Is Today the Day
I wake up to yet another day A day with an open canvas A canvas to create the future What oh what will I create A day of wondering why Why our world is what it is A day to choose Goodness A day to pass on kindness A world who helps each other I choose to make a difference A difference to change the word To change the world one person at a time Michael D Russell Michael D Russell
Dec 29, 20251 min read
New Year's Plans
Other people have great plans, Fly in a plane, And discover new lands. Lose tons of weight, Learn to skate, Redecorate the house, Learn to play Strauss My plans are different, Stay awake all day When I fall, I pray Not to get hurt, Do up my shirt Buttons or zips, Hope that this relapse is just a blip Write a poem For the first time since school. Watch out for the spasm, The foot drop, The flop. Time for new drugs, Please no MS hugs. Karen McKeating
Dec 29, 20251 min read


Think
It is difficult to think straight When you are chronically ill. At least ill the way I am Where just about everything hurts. Your condition-- The pain you are felling-- Is all-consuming. Sometimes it is all You can think of. Even when you try To not think There is little room For thoughts about anything else. But still you try To think thoughts outside What you are feeing Even though it is Who you’ve become: A dull guy in pain. In pain that is never dull. Paul Lima paullima.c
Dec 29, 20251 min read


Tomorrow
Tomorrow is a brand new day, I'll change my ways , and watch what I say. Just cos I'm stressed, that's not me at my best. I'll shout and curse, well this is me at my very worst. I have to change and put things right. I'll tuck the kids in and wish them goodnight. I'll find the time, so watch this space we'll each have a smile upon our face. K.MacDonald
Dec 29, 20251 min read
Change & Adapt
When the days seem so alike and nothing much happens to stir the embers of your soul, what would you give to be able to live, change the course of your life’s journey? . Is it a forgone conclusion, a delusional mindset that allows no leeway to your direction? . Have you just surrendered to the inevitable? . What if change ‘was’ possible? If you ‘could’ take a different route, even for a few short years? Could you adapt? . Or do fears hold us back, and we lack the certitude t
Dec 29, 20251 min read


Be Strong This Christmas
Christmas usually has a magical touch. I enjoying the festivities, But try to make sure not to do too much. Theres always a joyous atmosphere and exciting days, But I'm always praying the illness will actually give me a break. Theres always happy times and happy faces, But I'm keeping mental health struggles hidden in unseen places. Doing my best to keep going, Because nothing I want to miss, I keep telling myself, “I want to be strong this Christmas”.
Dec 16, 20251 min read


That dark night
That dark night falls in, Windows are closed with the drapes drawn, Doors bolted, Heating alight to protect against bitter ice setting in. Familiar faces, Their loving embraces, Not a more treasured place, A crowd in the abode, So why do you feel alone? House is filled with light and personality, It's still dark out of your eyes, A dimmer switch only for you. Voices are in a peaceful motion, Yet you feel commotion, Isolated condemnation, Emotions are broken. Tearful yet tearl
Nov 30, 20251 min read
Under my Personal Moon
Under my personal Moon I’m in the autumn of my life struggling with MS, Drinking Texas – style iced tea listening to dead leaves as they float toward the frozen landscape pondering the scenes under moon’s shadows. When I think I’ve lost everything, I know it’s just MS, And not me. I can’t think like I use to, But I CAN love. I’ll smell pumpkin pies with Its bright orange’s taste- I can partake mother’s fried chicken, And Southern cream gravy. I’m aware of sunsets as if it’s t
Nov 30, 20251 min read
Is Today the Day
I wake up to yet another day A day with an open canvas A canvas to create the future What oh what will I create A day of wondering why Why our world is what it is A day to choose Goodness A day to pass on kindness A world who helps each other I choose to make a difference A difference to change the world To change the world one person at a time. Michael D Russell
Nov 30, 20251 min read
Within the Dead Place
Within the Dead Place West Texas tornadoes strike 365 days in a year in black holes of my brain. Legions of Thunder Clouds are shadows, covering broken bodies, lives, emotions, despair when no one knows – except my body. In the season of my autumn and within the dark side of my Super Moon, I’m in the era of my life, struggling with challenges when people don’t understand, and never will. Am I different than most MS survivors? I hope others do the same: I kick the cowboy boot
Nov 30, 20251 min read
Truth
Calm is is key, Anger the enemy, Pride a distraction. Andrew Traill
Nov 30, 20251 min read


Rob
HE SUFFERS SUCH PAIN BUT HARDLY COMPLAINS HIS WIT IS SHARP AND HE JOKES AGAIN AND AGAIN YOU CAN SEE HIS
Oct 30, 20251 min read


Happy Birthday
You’re the Flake in my ice cream Clotted cream on my scone Gemstones in my rings and things Games on my phone Bubbles in my bathtub Gloss on my lips Star in my midnight sky Vinegar on my chips Happiest of birthdays Drew This is what I needed to say You paint my ordinary world So much brighter every day Happy Birthday. Julie Wickens.
Oct 27, 20251 min read


Contradiction
A contradiction— I am; live inside of any box, b/c there are no boxes-- I don’t; explain anything to you people b/c y’all are living within your comfort zone-- I can’t; to walk on the straight line— I refuse; structures that define me— I destroy; a contradiction— I am; be what“ they” want me to be— I won’t; to hell— y’all go. Contradiction. Daryl Halencak
Oct 27, 20251 min read


She is hungry today (Trigger Warning)
She is hungry today. Her skirts are swirling, blue green, frills of lace. Sometimes she appears angry and sometimes calm, always deceiving. She spots the boy, red jumper, blue shorts, running, running. But he can never escape her once she has decided. She increases her speed, watching watching. For a moment it seems as if he will break free. But she reaches out with her icy white fingers and captures him. Within seconds he is gone, no red against the blue green and white. The
Oct 27, 20251 min read


I Ain’t Dead Yet (Freeform with haiku)
All I can say is – “I will live another day stay away , Devil” I wonder if my funeral homily will be written just about MS: crippled fingers – eyes barely focus – impossible balance issues- can’ t type very well. Still, I ain’t dead yet because my psyche tells me, “I think; therefore, I exist.” I can scribble poetic words from a brain with black lesions and holes, struggle with my dark autoimmunity disease with damnable muscle wasting - slow - cognitive abilities. I wonder if
Oct 20, 20251 min read


You hear my voice, You see my smile
You hear my voice, You see me smile, You think it's not that bad. Inside I'm screaming, Inside I'm arguing, Inside I'm crying. But I won't show as I don't want you to worry. I may stumble, I may forget, Setting a time is setting regret. This is me A new me and It's not coz I'm going to the gym, It's not coz of a new year resolution. I have been forced into these changes, I smile to reassure you that I'm O K You hear my voice, You see my smile. Stefano Cimmino
Oct 19, 20251 min read


Fame part 2
Now that my words are written down on paper, black and white, someday you may decide that what I've written isn't right. Opinions aren't like words two can never be the same, but if your opinions are written down, they can be heard again. Even though nobody's talking, the words can still be read, so write them down and then we'll know exactly what you said. Fame part 2. K.MacDonald
Oct 19, 20251 min read
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